Monday, May 9, 2011

Angels on Earth

The woman standing is Cindy.  She is my neighbor.  And she is an angel on earth.  We had the pleasure of taking her to the zoo with us last week.  Being in her presence is like being with an angel.  She is pretty much a perfect being.  She is mentally a lot younger than she physically is.  And she is one of the sweetest people I have ever known.  I know that some people out there are afraid or unsure about people that are like Cindy is.  But I for the most part people like Cindy are just like children and they are innocent and as perfect as any human being can be.

The day I asked Cindy to go to the zoo with us, truly brought me real joy.  She literally jumped for joy.  It was such a great sight to see.  And the day we went, she was out waiting in her jacket with her lunch at 8:30 that morning.  We weren't leaving until 11, but she was so very excited!  As were we!  

My mother n law told me of a friend of hers, who was very afraid of people with special needs.  She was at a public swimming pool with her children one day, when a mother and her older special needs daughter were walking towards her.  She was going to have to go by them.  And she prayed right then and there asking father in heaven for help.  She did not want to offend this mother and her daughter.  When she opened her eyes after the prayer she say this mother, holding hands with the most beautiful woman she had ever seen in her life.  And then she heard a whisper in her ear saying, "This is how I see her."  

Our Father in Heaven sees us for who we truly are.  And so I try to keep that in mind.  When we are in the presence of these earthly angels, that is what I tell my children they are.  If I notice them staring, I lean down and say, "Do you see the Angels?"    

So next time you are blessed to be in the presence of one of these Angels, think about how our Heavenly Father sees them.  Because he sees them perfectly.

Friday, May 6, 2011

Dwelling on the Past

I was talking to a friend I used to work with the other day.  And  we talked a little about our old boss.  I was talking about my feelings towards this old boss of mine.  And as I was talking, my friend stopped me and said, "you are still hung up on that?"  I said no, that I just didn't like this person.  But later that night, and since then I have thought to myself.  Am I really still hung up on that?  It is like the picture above, sometimes we dwell on things so long, before we know it, those things roots are deep and hard to pull out, therefore they are hard to let go of.    And I thought to myself, why do I really need to have those things in my life?  Why do I continually feel the need to revisit those times, and think about them?  Why should I not forgive, forget and get over it?  So to this friend, Thank you for making me really think about this.  WAKE UP CALL!

It also made me reflect on a talk I heard by President James E. Faust.  I had the privilege of being at the conference center with a great friend named Melissa, and his talk still means as much to me if not more now, as it did when I first heard it.  It is called "Instruments in the Hands of God".  Here is a paragraph from his talk, 

I believe that all of you sisters want to be happy and find the peace that the Savior promised. I think many of you try very hard to keep up with all of your responsibilities. I do not wish to offend anyone. I am reluctant to mention a matter but feel it should be said. Sometimes we carry unhappy feelings about past hurts too long. We spend too much energy dwelling on things that have passed and cannot be changed. We struggle to close the door and let go of the hurt. If, after time, we can forgive whatever may have caused the hurt, we will tap “into a life-giving source of comfort” through the Atonement, and the “sweet peace” of forgiveness will be ours.4 Some injuries are so hurtful and deep that healing comes only with help from a higher power and hope for perfect justice and restitution in the next life. Sisters, you can tap into that higher power and receive precious comfort and sweet peace. "

If you would like to read the entire talk, here is the link 

As I read that paragraph I long for that comfort that he speaks of.  I do carry to much pain from my past.  I don't mean to, but I can feel it there.  And I should forgive, and let go.  But how do I do that, after holding onto it for so long?

We need to leave our past behind us, let it walk away and not resurface in our daily thoughts.  I think this can be done by a real desire to do so, and of course with sincere prayer and scripture study.  And if you feel you need it, a priesthood blessing  As we do these things I believe that our past hurts will become blurred in our memory, rather than vivid.  I believe that though we can reflect on what we have learned from our past, we can let go and forgive those that have wronged us, and forgive ourselves.  I think that is one of the hardest things we as humans do, we cannot forgive ourselves. There was a time in my life, one of many really, where I was seeking forgiveness from my Heavenly Father.  And I kept praying, "please Father, forgive me."  I would say this over and over on bended knee.  I would plead with my Father for his forgiveness.  I remember talking to my very wise mother about this, and she said something to me that has always stuck with me, "I think our Father in Heaven forgives us rather quickly.  It is you who needs to forgive yourself now."  That really got to me, had I forgiven myself?  I still wonder this today.  But I believe that to be true.  It is not doctrine, but I know that our Heavenly Father loves us.  And he wants to forgive us.  He does not want to with hold his forgiveness, and so therefore when we ask for it, he freely gives it.  All we have to do is ask with a sincere heart.  

So, Can we all try to let go of those deep rooted pains of the past we carry with us, make our lives lighter, and feel the peace, joy and comfort that is eagerly awaiting us?  I believe that we can.  I know that we can.

Wednesday, May 4, 2011


Today I have been thinking about trust.  I love the scripture Proverbs 3 vs 5-6 
Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.
In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.

That is one of my favorite scriptures.  And I try to live by it.  I try to trust in the lord in all I do.  Sometimes it is hard to trust in him.  Because sometimes you have to make decisions that are not easy.  But Since I have trusted in the Lord in all I do, I feel like I have been rewarded.  One of the times was whether or not to end an engagement.  I didn't want to, I loved my fiancĂ©e, but things were not right between us, and we both knew it.  I prayed for help.  And help came.  Help came through my mother, my bishop, my friends and most of all my Savior.  And because I trusted in what the Lord wanted me to do, I now have a wonderful husband, and 2 beautiful daughters that I would not have, had I not trusted in the Lord.  It was one of the hardest things I have ever done, but it was also one of the best things I have ever done.  And I am so thankful for the experience.  

I also trust in the Lord for little things, in all I do.  I trust in him daily.  And I know that since I do, I am happy.  When I have lived without trust, I may have thought I was happy, but it wasn't until I trusted in him with all my heart, that I found out what real happiness is.

So I ask you all to put your trust in the Savior, because he will enrich your life.  You will be filled with the joys that this world can offer.  The joys that our Savior has to offer.  Trust in the Lord and he will guide and protect you.

Tuesday, May 3, 2011